Sunday, April 28, 2013
I have so many memories and stories I could share from the amount of time I knew you, but there is one thing that stood out to me the most and that is the week I spent with you, just us for hours a day talking about everything that could possibly be talked about. In that time I saw how much you loved Angel, I saw that she was your entire world, your "pride and joy" as you kept referring to her. I could tell by the way you spoke to me that you could feel your time was running out, you just knew and it broke my heart because I knew it wouldn't be long until you were gone and your grand daughter's entire world would shatter. It broke my heart to see someone who was so kind and generous to everyone suffer so much. You told me to take care of Angel and I promised I would protect her to the best of my ability. I do the best I can everyday and I will never stop as long as I am able to do so. There were so many things you shared with me, things you made me promise to never tell anyone, which is hard, but I do it. You made me feel like family first before anyone else, even though you didn't agree with mine and Angel's lifestyle, you accepted me for who I was and it made me smile every time I saw you. You were so loving and so selfless it amazed me, you taught me things about life that I will never forget and I am so grateful for the time I spent with you. You had amazing faith and so does your husband and I have never witnessed that in my entire life. You made Angel the woman she is today and you did an amazing job and I told you that so many times, she is still heart broken but she knows you're not suffering anymore and that part makes her happy. It's so hard to see pictures of you on benefit posters and hear Angel say she wants to go to your grave, when a month ago you were here with all of us. You will never know how much it meant to me to see you smile and say "Hi Raysha" every time I walked in your room. I loved you like my own family and you will always be in my heart, and though I wish you were still here, I do not wish that pain on you again that you had to go through for a year. When I think of you I smile so big and at the same time my heart hurts because you are gone, but then I feel peace also because I know you are free. I will always miss you, but no one will miss you like Angel and Ed do and my heart breaks for them. Please watch over them and help them to feel at peace one day, help them to feel whole again someday without heartache and sadness. I wish I could've known you longer but I wouldn't trade the time I got with you for anything. Thank you for making me feel like family, thank you for loving me and accepting me so quickly, I will be forever grateful for having you in my life while I did. I love you and I miss you everyday. Love Raysha...
